Relief and Regret

It feels weird that I could, and just maybe should, be writing this entry from Logan, awaiting the fitness test tomorrow. But I'm not. I'm sitting in my bed dreading my day of work tomorrow. There are pieces of me that wonder if I made the right decision. Right now, I'm sad that I'm not up in Logan with the rest of my friends dreading the days to come, but I'm even more relieved that I don't have to deal with all that bullshit anymore. Yes, I'll miss the girls and the experience, but for me I think its more than that. I didn't really get the experience last year, and who's to say that I'd get it this year. It was time for me to start a new life, a normal life. It's kind of scary to think about what I'm going to be doing this year with my free time. I never really had to think about it before, my time was consumed with soccer. But what now? What now that its over for me? I will actually have time to be a college student! I won't be under so much pressure to finish studying before practice! I will get to do things I want to do! I'll be able to get a job! So many things I've never been able to do before.

My only worry is that one day I'll regret my decision. But as of right now, I don't see how I could.